This blog actually started in 2011 as my little freetime in a very busy dailylife as a fulltime singlemother, with fulltime work and a lot of designprojects in my own company next to my work, which was very busy. My blog Aviajaspace as the name say was my space and time in the evening, after I had put my small children to sleep, a time where I could inspire myself and others with my interest’ without leaving home, an hour or two where I were connecting with parts I missed in my life and myself. It was so helpful and I have really enjoyed all those hours of writing.
What were my interest’ in the start?
Creativity, design, jazzmusic, writing poetry, colors, food and cooking, Greenland (part of my culture), art, meditation, needlework, nature, photos and probably other things I have forgotten about since I have changed over the years and my interest’ have changed or should I say deepened. Because a lot of the interest’ mentioned above are still the same, some are just more prominent in my life. If you have asked me 13 years ago what I would spend my time with in 2024, I don’t think I would have answered taking another round with being my own boss without safety net, facing a lot of fear and establishing courage to create my third career in my life (my first career was within tourism, second design and now being a spiritual advisor).
The past four years after we moved to Denmark from Greenland have been a very transformative period, going from a very busy life as a professional interiordesigner, living in a lovely house with a stunning view over the ocean, being blessed with highend clients within the corporate world, earning a good amount of money and in many ways being very succesful.
I was supposed to be where I was those years, in my favourite country, Greenland, with my favourite people, my children and creating a lot of beautiful good design, through a period of time where me and my family needed stability and was rooted one place. But I am a nomad of heart or just not able to settle one place.
I remember the change, the pull towards wanting to change my world, trying something new, without not really knowing my new path. And I know myself, when that pull starts, its like a rolling snowball at the top of the hill, growing bigger and moving faster, until I have to take action on it or life will create circumstances that push me to change my world. This time I took action.
One night November 2018 where I couldnt sleep I re-read a book by the healer Alberto Villoldo, I dont even remember the title, I just knew that I had to check him out. At his homepage I saw he had a month long residential program in California starting February 2018, and it felt so right for me, that I in that moment decided to manifest the conditions for me to participate the programme. (manifesting enough money for the very expensive program, travels for me and my family, living expences for 3 months where I was not working, nearly 5 weeks of programme, 4 weeks of holiday with my children and another month where I was back and working to earn money, and then of course finding someone who would live with my children for a short amount of time before they were travelling themselves to different destinations and eventually meeting up with me in Denmark).
What a logistic, what a manifestation, nevertheless I was pretty consistent in my thought about it becoming my reality. And a couple of weeks after this decision I recieved some business calls with two HUGE designprojects which had to be done immediately, which meant I could raise the cost’ and the money were covering those 3 months ahead.
That was the start of my big transformational period, ending my design career, moving country, starting a new career as a spiritual advisor and of course helping my two girls to integrate themselves in another culture in some important years being teenagers.
Looking back at the past four years, I must admit Im glad I didnt know what was laying ahead, then I am pretty sure I havent thrown myself and my girls on our turbulent quest.
Four years of rocky roads, a lot of moving, change of direction, so little money, Covid time (which we all know was about), feeling soooo lost, digging deep and trying to understand that change of identity is a big loss of yourself for a period of time before you find a new identity or are able to accept and live with different circumstances you havent imagined.
The four years has also been a course in a non-linear journey, letting go of all I have know and how to percieve life, in listening to my inner voice, meeting new people and creating a new network out in the big world, walking new spiritual pathways, besides my healing, adding psychic, mediumship and spiritual assessment to my services.
Trust have been a big part of my journey and probably the most difficult one for me because I have tried to view my life from the old way of thinking and living. I have felt stepping backwards more than forward, rollercoaster after rollercoaster of expansion and contraction, trust and fears at once, anchoring my soul my light and allowing it more and more next to so many shadows and old stuff rising.
So besides feeling low and lost in many periods, it has been and is actually a steady stream of my soul nudging me towards my new direction and a lot of unknown and uncertainty. The part where you have to lean more and more in to uncertainty and meanwhile becoming yourself has for me been a very exciting journey, much needed and a huge lesson in surrendering.
In 7 weeks Im having a blank sheet in front of me, no outside boss, no income, a lot of ideas and intentions about what to create and start and at the same time some inner work letting go of control, trusting that my soul have helped me to this moment.